Floundering
Trying to understand what is just beyond us may be
called floundering after the 'x' factor. Floundering is a bit like splashing
about in a swimming pool. But floundering is also a necessary precondition to
new vision, better vision and growth.
I
suppose we can come to the cutting edge of 'Lifeness' through a careful
build-up of captured and understood bits of Reality, or through a sudden mad
dash. I notice that a genuine contemplation of everlastingness alters the shape
of my vision and purpose, so that I guess that a contemplation of the 'X'
factor, or fact, may also alter something that I can't explain until it
happens.
'X' is a shut-off. All our sense of understanding can
build to what we call Being - Consciousness - Bliss ('BCB') and that is exactly
as it should happen. But it is quite natural to feel a great wonder about 'how
anything so wonderful ever got started in the first place'.
To look 'X' straight in the face for a while seems to
increase the appreciation of the 'BCB' factor or, more succinctly, the 'BC'
factor. I don't mean to go on splitting hairs for the sake of it, but I am
drawing attention to the principle of contrast in connection with waking up. (I
am also giving free rein to my instinctive flounderings to see where they take
me.)
We can grasp 'BC' (Being Consciousness), but there are
degrees of that grasping. I wonder if looking at X increases the appreciation
of 'BC', in the same way that looking at everlastingness, or 'E-X', increases
our appreciation of NOWness, or 'N-X'.
There seems to be some connection of this X-ness with....
X + E-X = N-X
(The unknowable with the addition of an everlasting approach to itself, gives the most mysterious and potent form of nowness.)
This is permanent aspiration....which makes one feel quite tired even thinking about it....so long as X is unbelievably 'Beautiful'. Beautiful, in this sense, is a step beyond the amalgam of all valuable qualities.
In other words, there is so much more to be appreciated in NOWness than we have yet begun to wonder about, and it is this most profound appreciation and tasting of the NOW that is also the most profound form of Being Awake. The unknown as unknowable is with us NOW and will for ever lead us on towards knowing IT. For 'IT' has to be something very wonderful indeed and must have the seed of our equation, above, within it.
My own attempt to do this was to paint and photograph
'Flowerness' through attending to flowers. There is beauty hiding there which
draws me by it's over and above- and beyond- and is an everlasting smile- and
always offering the Absolute best..... SO FAR.
This 'so far' is also a clue to 'God being everything, so why does He bother?' question. God is a LIVING God not a 'done it all, that's it, God,' and so He flounders at the 'not yet done' as we are doing now. As we can say, 'It's just for Fun-Delight,' and, 'I can't stand being bored,' reasons. This is also a clue to 'X', I suspect, in that however IT arose, it arose with this kick behind it. But that makes no sense. Nothing makes sense when we try to understand how the 'Seed of all Seeds of lifeness and consciousness' got started. It feels so strange to me that we can grasp this concept with our awareness, which arises from the answer, and yet get no answer.
I don't intend to go on beating my head against this,
but I quite enjoy grasping the bones of it and clarifying it to the best of my
ability. It seems to be part of the same package that enables me to enjoy the
light and colour and shape of flowers in the N-X of now. I detect a big amused
smile being directed on me from SOMEONE ! It's a loving smile and also says, 'I
like you to be like this, so that we get a really hot game going between us'
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE IT GOES SO LONG AS IT'S HOT.
Have you noticed that when we do something that is really
fun a great feeling of love arises at the same time? Super fun produces super
love.
It's not easy to produce super fun because it's God's
extreme delight, but it's a super challenge!
An Apology from God
A friend of mine has been pestering me lately by
asking me why I am the way I am, which is, to him, rather ungodlike at times. I
have to apologise to him about this and try to explain my position.
You
see I had to start this great game from the place of great potency which I had
come to live in. This place (a position, or attitude) is where the action has
to come from, and is thus the place of the power which any action requires. The
fun that I envisaged for myself — 'fun' being another word for lovely
joyfulness meeting with action and surprise — was to create a playground which
could introduce these situations for me and also you, the players, who could
play at it all with me. This was to keep the sense of fun cooking and boiling
over into new ways of experiencing it — 'it' being the livingness of my being.
It turned out not to be easy, for the conditions
required to get it started are those of enormous vitality and perfection, and
had a feel about them which clouded the real purpose of it all. These essential
preliminary conditions were full of the structures and organising principles
that naturally come from the beginning situation I had to build, and into which
I could pump 'energy with orders in' so that I could bring the play ground and
players into a living situation outside my essential being. When I say outside,
I mean in a condition which could enable pure potential to become lots of sorts
of bits of this potential — all sorts of bits and pieces broken away from a
sort of imprisonment in the oneness of pure being.
Hmmm, I trust I have not lost you in all this; it
seems so simple to me and yet I realise it is quite likely to be the opposite
for you. Let's try to cut it short.
Angels live and work for Me in these highest realms,
and as Teachers will give you the powerful and highly organised feeling of the
structures required to build and maintain the playground and players for the
great game which is afoot — the playing at living experience game.
My friend has come up from Earth, a place I arranged
which would allow him to get to grips with this playing without being aware of,
or inhibited by, the stuff that the Angels are dealing with. For the point of
it all is to be quite free of the initiating organisation and it's necessary
awesome power and energy so that we could all arrive at a naturally friendly,
all pals together, way of living out this great fun. You can dig me in the ribs
and tell me a joke, and I would love it, but if you get involved with the
Organising Angels you will never be able to do this.
See if you are having my sort of lovely fun; if not,
try to break away from organisers and their followers. It's all meant to be
user friendly to your 'you-ness' and my 'me-ness' together. There's nothing
else to do with this everlastingness except to learn how to have the best sort
of delightful fun with it.
If
you object to this, because you can see and feel the mess and pain that exists
among you, just let me say that the freedom to learn what the game is, and how
to play it in your own way, is the only way it is ever going to work for us
all. When you learn how to do it properly it will make the very best sense, and
stop being such a nasty preliminary episode for so many of you.
Sorry if I'm beginning to sound uncaring. I am not
uncaring, but I can't help living with my big smile because I can see where it
is all leading. I bet there are times when you too get this feeling with you
own children. There are, however, no games worth playing which don't have all
sorts of 'testing times' within the overall gladness about having something to
play at rather than nothing to play at.
Enjoy the Process
ME
"My cup runneth over" and I am concerned to
catch the valuable life experience and not allow it to go to waste doing the
wrong thing at the wrong time. There are so many possibilities to choose from
in my creative play.
GOD
You simply cannot do everything all of the time.
Experiment and waste go together and lead to discovery, so don't become anxious
about results. Try to enjoy the process itself which allows for lateral
thinking and lateral diversions.
The new things are not found where you expect them to
be. We can't live "new beginnings" without letting go of the
"old beginnings" and allowing them to slip away. All that is really
valuable will come back to you when it is needed. This is part of The Game of
life which requires forgetting and letting go with good grace and a sense of
non-importance of ones valuable Self. Do not fear to waste your time and
energy, you will never run out of them and the "Crisis" in the World
is only solved by those who follow the best instincts of their Spiritual
Nature. As these work out all together, so each one of you finds yourself
holding and demonstrating a bit of the necessary jig-saw puzzle of life coming
into a new and better expression of itself, Myself-Ourself.
Be with the big, fearless love which smiles on
everything from its sense of Everlastingness and the Completeness that lies
behind all Living Reality. For Reality is complete in one sense although it
strives to play at Itself in another sense. Life Games are set up for
playfulness and not because our being nature is frightened of losing anything.
We think we can lose but we can't. There are safety nets around everything
since all comes from perfect Love, Joy, Fun, Bliss, Wisdom and Humour!
What you see as misery in the World is what you see in
your child as it lives from crisis to crisis each hour of the day with each one
being "the end of the world" in severity. Your world is like this
child, it is the way young things grow...only the scale is different. They will
both grow out of it.
All these words are just to help you to get to grips
with the Spirit of life for your Self and in your own way. This leads to a
simplicity in the midst of complexity which appears to others to be Wisdom and
beyond words. Words point to this and that, here and there, but Wisdom is
beyond this and that, it is Being with the essence of the possibility of life.
To allow it to work out as experience we play at
putting together "stage sets" or Worlds, each one different, to draw
out variety in the nuances of life possibilities. Our Spirit learns to manage
this as we grow up, we then visit each others Worlds as we add to our
collection of "ways to do life"; rather like a Bee collecting honey
from all sorts of flowers.
So don't be surprised when other people visit your
World and you start to visit theirs. You can't do this in the contraptions you
use to visit the moon. You will do it properly when your idea of yourself
becomes more spiritual in nature and much more ethereal in conception. Then you
will "allow" yourselves to look at ethereal science and ways of doing
things which are in keeping with the graceful efficiency of Spiritual Wisdom.
Then you will see the Big Stage of Universal Productions Ltd. as being a very
graceful project.
At present, when you approach Wisdom and the Love-Joy
of it's nature you go "all funny" about it and go into all sorts of
"over the top" forms of reverence, discipline and dogma and throw
your common sense out of the window. Your idea of power and importance as your
crude, dominant personalities use it on Earth is the cause of this and, of
course, is fear based rather than love based. I am not like this. My power and
dominance is only there to enable love and joy to please us all, you all and My
Self. It is then so natural that My happiness is wrapped up in our collective
happiness, and our collective misery too, while you learn to grow up in
understanding. I can cope with this misery, but you, being youngsters, often
feel that you can't cope because you have not learned to live from your
strength which is only found in the nature of your Spirit, the Spirit we all
share. Our Selfness and our Oneness are thus so easily linked together in the
love play of this Innermost Nature.
And so I sigh and smile and wait.
You are all so silly and stupid and adorable and
childish as yet, and I can't hurry this growth without spoiling the virtue of
your condition of development from spiritual sleep to self-chosen awareness. I
just want you to feel how "nice" it all is, even when it seems to be
"all nasty". Tricky, I know!
The best thing to do is to try to experience Me and
what goes with Me for your Self. Inner and outer contemplation, meditation and
conscious direction of your attention and intention are common sense ways of
knowing Me, and thus your own You, and lead to recognising how interwoven we
are.
A Cup of Day
What
shall I do to-day?What will to-day do with me?
What will I do to to-day?
What will we do to each other?
Hello, play-friend day, here we are so wonderfully arranged, each on our own side of the tennis net of life, neither of us concerned to win but only to be the best companion in the game. We may touch upon surprise or we may enjoy the re-happenings of old joys. The new and unknown thing still loves to reveal itself among the best of the beauties stored in our treasure chest of the known.
If I wish I can choose to Be with the thrill of the cutting edge of this game, where 'the net' is. The thrill can be so deep that what we would call its excitement is so much a part of its primary Being that it feels as though it is utter peace at the same time. What a paradox.
I look at IT, and then IT looks at me with 'that' smile.
Do you know 'that' smile in yourself ?
It seems to be able to smile on everything, whatever it is. How can it do that unless everything, whatever it is, is something to be glad about ?
I will ask...
The reply comes...
'I only smile like this because I know that everything that is happening is in place of nothing happening. You and I both want to play the game of the happening of living experience - whatever happens - instead of remaining in the Absolute Being state of no game, the state of Pre-Creation and no happening.
Because of your strong connection with a relatively coarse level of physical play most of you fail to see My smile and so you forget what the atmosphere and mood was that set it all up, and still broods over it all.
Ah well, play is play and one thing leads to another, but there are times when I wish that your fever of dominant self-wilfulness would subside, with all its contrary forms of unplayful activity, for these confuse you and you don't realise that life is meant to be an opportunity for you to live out your best joys with as much definition as possible. I want you to smile on Me as I smile on you. I don't know how I can say it more clearly than that.'
